Screwed Up Rockstar

Getting nervous
So I reach for my bag
Pull it out light it up
Take a long drag
Pop some pills
Flush them down with wine
Go on stage
It's my time to shine
Hear the crowd road
Hear the crowd scream
But so high it seems
like a blurry dream

Throughout our playing I realize we sound like crap
As the song ends I'm proved wrong
Everyone starts to clap

I go backstage
Look around for a fan
That for one night
Will make me feel like a man
I tell her she's beautiful
I make her believe
At night I grant her fantasy
In the morning I tell her to leave
I watch her cry realizing she's been used
Her heart now torn and abused
I feel guilt pushing its way through
To make it leave me alone
I take another pill or two...